Getting a life a.k.a Living dangerously

I had promised myself to stop quoting aJamaa, correctly or otherwise, but there's a reason he was [is] referred to as 'brilliant'.

Something he said recently really made an impression. Now, I've been told countless times to 'get a life'. Probably because I've always been the epitome of cautiousness and conservatism. [There's a time I blamed my early childhood for this, but I'll be turning 27 in a couple of weeks and somehow that excuse doesn't quite have the same weight as it used to] I'm also a no-frills person. I don't have a fancy mobile phone, don't wear designer [in fashion?] outfits, eat at fancy places or generally do much 'fun' stuff. I like safe and familiar. New stuff is scary.

The result is that I've spent most of my life watching others live. [For a long time I actually felt like I was in a movie] The other reason for this state of mind was an uncertainty of what I'm here for. I also tend[ed] to get bored rather easily. Once I know I can do something, there's little enthusiasm left for it. Especially if it's something other people harp about. So I sit, and watch. My apparent tendency to think too much holding me in place.

Getting older has brought clarity to many things, and realities closer home. I still find myself struggling to do what seems to come naturally to most other people. To live. I feel, though, like I'm at a turning point. As I do every other week.