Friday, March 10, 2006

What really matters?

For some time now, I've been in a rather sombre mood. Sad. Confused. Lost. Disillusioned. Depressed. Asking myself questions like what life's about and is it worth it. So what really matters? Money. Health. Career. Education. Relationships. What.

12 Comments:

Blogger Bee said...

Samborera i can't help you much as we are in the same boat. I'm keeping on by tellng myself to live a day at a time as best as I can...

Friday, March 10, 2006 9:48:00 PM  
Blogger Malaika said...

Try getting with God on that one. He has a plan for your life. Trite as it may sound. I do believe it's true.

Saturday, March 11, 2006 2:12:00 AM  
Blogger Samborera said...

I went to see someone in hosi yesterday. Said the usual "how are you", to which she responded, simply "I'm alive". I saw the look in her eyes. That look. I've seen it before. This isn't real. This is a movie. Where's the remote so that I can press pause. I stood there for 5 mins then all of a sudden started feeling nauseated. I actually felt like I was going to throw up. My jaw was producing those sour juices and stuff. I had to leave the room. Perhaps it's the chips I'd had the night before. I don't know.

Just puts things in perspective.

Monday, March 13, 2006 8:29:00 AM  
Blogger KenyanMusings said...

Happiness as you define it is all that matters. None of the other stuff does. And it was great to meet all of you guys.

Monday, March 13, 2006 9:43:00 AM  
Blogger Spidey/Tato said...

woiye kijana ur goin thru growin pains...what really matters? where do we go from here? yup classic signs of onset of depression post realising the fact ur growing old. ha ha ha

Monday, March 13, 2006 5:05:00 PM  
Blogger Samborera said...

Yeah. Mid-life crisis. For sure. Given that life expectancy in this part of the world is around 47, I'm definitely there.

Monday, March 13, 2006 5:31:00 PM  
Blogger Kelitu said...

lol samborera that vibe about life expectancy is 47.
anyway it's a part of life (the ups and downs). the thing you have to remember is that you ahve to find a middle ground in everything otherwise insanity is always round about the corner.

Monday, March 13, 2006 7:48:00 PM  
Blogger Samborera said...

I think I passed insanity junction some time back. Besides, normal is boring.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006 8:39:00 AM  
Blogger Girl in the Meadow said...

Me thought that by now you jamaa was well. Hey!
I think its moving from your last job to this one; being the reasons why you quit your last and the new people and procedures.

I felt the same when i started working where i am now. I was so familiar with the previous people i wasnt willing to let go.

Then when you fika and you have no desk or computer, you dunno what to do and not to...

You are gettin the feel of what i am saying. RELAX.............

Tuesday, March 14, 2006 3:13:00 PM  
Blogger Samborera said...

That will be 1 pill of RELAX 3 times a day, taken with KM's happiness. Got it!

Tuesday, March 14, 2006 3:42:00 PM  
Blogger aJamaa said...

Life is all a guy has and that is not a thing.

The ocean is a really big something. The ocean is made up of little drops of water. If you take away a single drop of water out the ocean remains big. If you take out two drops its still big. If you take out a million drops is it not still big? However, there must be a number of drops that if taken out from the ocean will stop the ocean from being something. But how would that many drops be taken out and where would you place them when you took them out? So it is impossible to take out so many drops from an ocean that an ocean stops being something. For that reason an individual drop of water does not matter. Infact it is nothing. It makes no difference. It creates nothing and stops nothing from being something.

Now consider a human being. There are over 6 billion people in the world. Now 6 billion is so big it must be something. Now this 6 billion is the number of people alive now; but how many people have ever lived since the beginning of the world 60 billion, 600 billion? If a guy dies in Eastern Mongolia now, right now does it really matter? Does it matter if the are 6 billion - 1 people in the world? Would it matter if a guy who was born 1000 thousand years ago had died a day earlier than they really did?

The point I am trying to make is that life is nothing. And since life is all I have I am nothing. We are all nothing. Whatever you feel, sad, happy, hornie e.t.c is all nothing. How can nothing feel something? It cant happen. It is as ridiculuous as saying nothing can create something. One might ask if people are nothing how can they have kids. Well my answer is the kids are nothing to. And if the kids are nothing does that not mean that nothing can create nothing? No. You cannot create nothing coz nothing is always there.

I have probably lost you by now coz I have already lost myself. The jist of the matter is that we are all nothing since life is all we have and that is not a thing.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006 8:27:00 PM  
Blogger Samborera said...

I don't sound too much like aJamaa, do I? I'm definitely not as methodological.

Now. Regarding aJamaa's comment. Makes sense. Reminds me of the time I used to ask myself "How come we aren' born knowing such profound truths". [Yes. I ask myself many questions] Would save us a whole lot of [melo]drama. In short, I agree and to paraphrase and in the process echo another wise man's words, "everything is useless".

Wednesday, March 15, 2006 11:46:00 AM  

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